Panexuality The Causes And Effects Of Pansexuality

Pansexuality is defined as the sexual, romantic, or emotional attractions to people regardless of their sex or gender identity. After years of repressed emotions and internalized homophobia, I finally came to terms that I at least wasnt straight back in June 2016. Up until that point, even though I’ve never been homophobic, I denied even the slightest chance that I could be anything but heterosexual. Unfortunately the internal battle I had with myself for many years was a major toll on my mental health. Even though my mental health isn’t really any better right now, I know that the worry over my sexuality isn’t the cause and it shouldn’t be a defining feature for me, but that it did trigger a period of personal-growth for me. For as†¦show more content†¦When I was in seventh grade there was a student in the grade above mine that identified as gay and was more feminine, he later became one of my best friends. A friend that used to go to my school h ad an older sister that was bisexual, she was also my friend, even helped me with bullies. In eighth grade, I attended a leadership camp for the second time and met a boy from a different school who was queer. Later that year my (bisexual) friend started dating girl that used to go to my school, after they broke up she dated one of my older friends. It was also the same place where I heard homophobic slurs for the first time. The kids at my school would use the words gay and faggot towards each other, never towards bisexual students but at sometimes at the only gay student. I still hear people use these terms but now I try to get them to stop using them. Eighth grade wasn’t a very good year for me. You’d think that with our teacher retiring within the first two weeks of school and our class having a different substitute teacher everyday because the previous one refuses to come back because of our horrible behaviour, that I would have had fun that year, but unfortunately it wasn’t like that. I mean, don’t get me wrong there were days where I couldn’t be happier to mess with teachers with my friends, which I understand was bad, but then there were days when I didn’t even want to get out of bed. My mental health was horrible and the one thing that made it worse was that I had